The wake of evil

I woke up this morning feeling like shit and like the sun reached out and slapped me. I laid in the bed longer only to have Lily -my cat STEP on my head to make me get up. Apparently although my boyfriend had been up for some time and preoccupied watching football he let Lily starve...ok well starve is a harsh word but remain hungry. I proceeded with my daily morning stuff boring things, took my medication and got a letter in the mail regarding an accident I was in back in June. So apparently the total cost of the insurance companies bill is $45,000 lmfao are you serious. I'm not even employed and you think I can pay that. They didn't even have any injuries and they only had liability. So I just got a headache after reading that bs. I will be calling my lawyer Monday or Tuesday regarding this matter. So on the upside, with me not having a damn thing to do every day I have been able to start reading some new books and also finish crocheting a scarf for my bestie that was supposed to be done like last year lol. I have fibromyalgia and also arthritis so it has been a bit difficult for me to complete the task, but I am very proud now that it is done. I try to live my life by doing good things for other people not because I want something but because I actually enjoy making people happy. I don't feel this way all the time sometimes I get very depressed and see no point to anything. During these times I try to find something positive to focus on. I didn't used to be able to do that. I suffer from major depression and anxiety. My life at my former job made my existence everyday very depressing. I hated what I  was doing and how you were always micro-managed. Nothing ever stayed the same, and there was this glass ceiling that prevented most people from moving up anywhere in the company. I hated every day I was there. Initially I didn't feel this way, it was only my last year that it became complete hell for me to be there. Now I feel like there has been this weight lifted off me and I am just relieved every day to not be there. My motto Carpediem!