The start of my day today was as mundane as any other. I was hurting a lot from my fibromyalia symptoms so it took me a while to get out of bed.
When in your life do you look around you and think...what happened? How did I get to this point in my life? I am always starting things and never finishing them. I either feel I can't really do it or I just plain get bored with it. Right now I don't know what to do. When you have depression its like this little person that is always there with you, then suddenly when you finally think you are feeling great. That little person whispers something in your ear to tear you down completely. I feel blessed for the things in my life. I am not materialistic so I am blessed to have people who care about me and the little things in life. I don't know what to do with myself anymore, I'm tired of rejections and things I can never get the courage to do.
I know that in life there will be bumpy roads and lots of hard paths. I feel like I have been down plenty. However with each problem I look at things differently, I try to understand the situation and learn from it. I hate this phrase but right now I do feel like I am between a rock and a hard place. Where do I go now? I guess I will let God shine a light on the path I should go.
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